Presentation of Self

• I find this topic really interesting as it's something I've always thought about throughout growing up. I remember whilst at school noting that certain friends acted differently depending on the social group they were with or putting things online that didn't represent how I saw them as a person. It made me think a lot about myself as I wondered whether I also did this and just couldn't see it or whether my friends were making a conscious effort to change who they were. 

  I've always had a strong sense of myself and felt that I presented the same 'self' to all walks of life be that family, friends or professionals. However upon reflection I can see that although I still believe that to be true I did and do make small adjustments to fit the situation I'm in. For example I've never been one to swear profoundly but I would never use those words in front of my parents or professionals, however in front of my friends I would feel more comfortable. In modern times I would also never use any kind of swear word publicly online as I feel it would present me in a different way to how I am. 

  As a child I was painfully shy, wouldn't talk to anyone unless they spoke to me first. On some level I still have that shyness in me but I don't want that to show to other people. Therefore I create this persona of confidence and speak to new people until I'm comfortable enough that I can be myself. This shyness shows it's face mostly in new situations for example a new job. I find it daunting going into a job where social connections have already been formed. I feel like an outsider and I feel like I'm intruding. I will always remain professional but in terms of comfortable conversation, unless someone reaches out and speaks to me I really do struggle to put myself out there. What's interesting is in all my years of working no one has ever thought of me as shy. People often say how confident they find me. 

  Online is a whole other world and I believe that it should represent you again as you represent yourself in person. I, for example, love my dogs more than anything in the world. I talk about them to anyone who will give me the chance and that is copied in my personal online presence with photos of my dogs and updates and videos. In professional terms I believe it should still represent YOU but at you at your very best. I put on videos of my singing, quotes and support our industry with my professional social medias as I want to be seen as an active member of our industry. 

  As I've explored in my essay for this term I have found that my practice is entirely ME, it is discovering my authentic self, being present for my life and finding my voice. My practice cannot exist without me being un-apologetically me. I have always said in interviews that what makes me stand out from anyone else is my personality, anyone could do the job but no one could do the job the same as ME. This is my practice. Learning to love me for me so that I can bring that to everything. 

  I say all this as I've learnt it however it wasn't always the case and sometimes it still takes a lot to remember it. I often found that at auditions I didn't come across as myself because I was nervous and in my head. I found that the auditions where I felt most myself were the ones I did better in. 

  As mentioned in my essay Derren Brown talks a lot about story telling ‘We are, each of us, the product of the stories we tell ourselves.’ (Brown, 2016) He mentions how we are entirely built up on stories, 'I am not a good dancer' that's a story I used to tell myself because as a kid I was always at the back and my singing has always been what people were drawn to. However if I present myself as a bad dancer that is how people will see me. Therefore I chose to change this. I changed my story to 'I am a singer who dances.' this change in perception altered my confidence in my ability and as a bi-product, altered my actual ability. People started noticing my dancing as well as my singing. How we choose to present ourselves and the stories we tell ourselves and others matters. 

 Ethics in My Practice

Reading through the handbook it asked me to consider my day to day practice and my ethical experiences each day. Having thought a little about it, I find that there are a lot of ethical considerations in our industry.

 

Favouritism-

This first came about during Drama School where it seemed like the 'favourites' got the best opportunities. Now we're taught at 'normal' school that teachers should never have favourites and that everyone should be treated equally and fairly so they can reach their full potential. Is this any different at drama school? I'm not so sure it is. The premise of training is to get to you to be the best you can be ready for the industry. So with that in mind shouldn't everyone regardless of natural talent etc. get the same opportunities to shine and do their best? 

I think favouritism is also shown in the industry too, where the same people get picked to do jobs because they're liked by the casting team or by someone in charge. Is there a difference however here to when in training? Perhaps so, as these people had to graft, and got picked because they were the best at the job. They continue to get picked because they're known to be reliable at getting the job done. I do think however that if this were always the case no one new could ever enter the industry so there is definitely a time and a place for these favourites. 

“When we overlook the errors of people we like and favour. We are crippling the society, because others look up to them and are copying from them. They will copy also their errors. One day we will be complaining why things are like this.” 
― De philosopher DJ Kyos

Body Image-

This is something I think is very important and thankfully the industry seems to be changing for the better, but I remember a time not too long ago when this was a whole other story. I know of people in drama school who were told they were to 'big' for their casting type and therefore would have to lose weight to be considered for jobs. Now on the one hand, this is what we know of our industry, it is all about the way we look, however with the awareness that we now have on mental health, is it alright to tell a young person that they are essentially too fat? We are always told we need thick skins to be in this industry and i completely agree with that, but who is the say that Cosette in Les Miserable can't be a bigger girl? Where has this stereotype come from that thin is pretty and fat is 'funny' ? I have seen the industry come on leaps and bounds in this area in the past couple of years as there are lots more people speaking out about it. I myself had an audition once where the lady said to me "you're a size 10/12 I'd assume? if you get get to a size 10 by the time rehearsals start that would be great' Why would be dropping a dress size affect my ability to do the job? She obviously thought I was talented enough so what was the issue here? I know a girl who was refused the same job because she was 'too big' and refused to lose any weight. We are taught that this is just what's expected of our industry but why should it be expected? why shouldn't we strive for better? 

Live Simply Natural. 2020. Body Positive Quotes For Better Body Image - Live Simply Natural. [online] Available at: <https://www.livesimplynatural.com/body-positive-quotes-for-better-body-image/> [Accessed 19 October 2020].

Racism-

Thankfully I have never come across this in my practice. But I am more than aware of its existence. I don't believe people intend to be racist, I think it is something that has been built into our society and become unconscious bias' towards specific things. Whilst at Drama School I know of friends who were told to 'be more black' or that they weren't being 'black enough' I have learnt from them that this upset them at the time because black isn't something they could switch on or off, it is who they were, it is their culture and heritage. Who has the right to say how 'black' someone is ? No one. I was always told that I was blessed because of the colour of my skin as it meant I was open to playing a variety of roles. I was then also told that the colour of my skin limited me to certain roles. I wonder which is correct and why I should be limited because of the colour of my skin? If it is not relevant to the plot why would it matter? This is something else that I've seen a huge improvement with over the years. As with body image should your talent not surpass the way you look? 

Pay

Whilst TV and Film is one of the wealthiest industries out there, its counterpart, theatre, is one of the poorest. We are so lucky that we do what we love as a career, but does this come with a price? There are many people who are willing to work for free because they love what they do and on the flip side of that, there are many who are willing to not pay their actors because 'it's an experience' or 'credit' for them. Some people can't afford to pay their actors well as it's a small job with a small budget and without these smaller pieces of art, our industry would not exist. However, does that make it okay? would you ever expect any other professional to work for less than minimum wage ? We hear of Lawyers taking on the ODD job for free as it is something that means a lot to them, but they also get paid very well to begin with. If something is low paid/no pay but will help better your career then I can't argue that perhaps it may be worth it. It's a no answer loop, I believe, all actors deserve to get paid for what they have worked and trained and spent THOUSANDS of pounds for. However, our industry is a difficult one and if taking a low pay job means working with a specific director or casting team etc. then is it worth it? will it boost your career to have that networking opportunity? 

That's all for now folks!

Diary of a Performer xx 

 Audition

Today I was supposed to have an 'all day audition' IN PERSON, however due to Corona it was moved to Zoom. I auditioned once before via Zoom but it was on a much smaller scale and was just me singing. This was a WHOLE NEWWWW WORLDDD (a hundred thousand things to seeeeee...should i reference this?😶) We were first taught a routine and then had individual singing, so let me tell you about my day utilising Web 2.0 to do an audition! 

9:55am: I logged in ready to to start at 10am!

10:10am: I'm still waiting to be let in...

10:20am: We're let in an introduced to the team and see that we're on a Zoom with around 52 people! it was shortly after this that we had to take a short break as the team were having sound difficulties (Corona does not make it easy!) 

My first thoughts were how daunting it was to be online with this many people, of course on platforms such as Facebook and Twitter you are connected with thousands more, but in this let's say more intimate platform I felt a little bit lost in a crowd. This didn't phase me however as the team were great at picking out everyone individually.  

10:30am we started learning the routine, this was when my wifi started to glitch, meaning that I'd try to learn what she was doing but then it would skip ahead to where she was in real time meaning I'd missed some. FUN. Despite this I picked it up well. She taught it in 4 sections which allowed my brain to compartmentalise and learn the moves easier. Repetition also helps me by just going over the same bits again and again, specifically the moves which join the sections together as that's where I usually fall short. My pickup has always been NOT BAD but I really felt the difference here. After dancing online for most of lockdown I no longer felt a slight panic and trusted myself to just know the next moves and what this allowed for was my performance to heighten as I could think about what story I was telling instead of what move I should be doing, how refreshing.

The next major thing that happened was we had to all perform the dance SOLO due to the lag that occurs on Zoom from other people's devices. Can you imagine being in a room for a dance audition and them saying "Right now one at a time" my heart would have sank! HOWEVER I was safe behind my screen so it didn't feel as bad, what it also allowed me to do was believe in myself. Normally in auditions I worry that I'm copying the people in front of me and the minute I have to be at the front I won't know it. Forcing me to do it alone confirmed that I was doing a good job and knew what I was doing. 

1pm: My turn came round to dance. I did it PERFECTLY (if I do say so myself) I felt so good about it and the casting director seemed very happy! until he said that it looked great...from what he could see as it glitched a lot. 👍👍👍 I had to log off run downstairs, log into my Dad's laptop, connect an ethernet cable, bring it all upstairs and get back onto the Zoom. STRESS. I then went straight back into the dance and forgot it. I did it again and forgot it. He understood I was flustered and allowed me to take a breather before going again. Let's reflect on that. I was upset that he hadn't seen all of my great version. I was stressed that I had bad wifi as I wanted everything to be perfect. I was flustered from running round the house trying to sort it out, and I had come out of my 'audition mindset' meaning I was no longer focused on the routine. My breather helped me compose myself again and I did the routine again just fine. I think what I need to work on now is not allowing small knock backs affect me as much as they did. In terms of performance if I make a mistake I am usually fine at carrying on, but as it was something out of my control I hadn't prepared for it. 

3:15pm: I logged back on after a chilled break ready for my singing audition. Now here is (in my opinion) an upside to auditioning online. They were still in the middle of auditioning other people which meant I got to see the competition 😜 I enjoy this as it gives me an understanding as to where I feel I fit in with other people. Now I know you shouldn't compare yourself to other people but I don't use it as a judgemental thing or to psych myself out, I use it as a research opportunity, I could see what the casting director enjoyed, didn't like as much, what I personally felt worked well etc. I find it useful and encouraging. 

Normally in these situations this is where I start to get nervous, however as I was stood in my bathroom at home I felt quite calm. I was allowed to sing all of my songs and he gave me some direction to which he seemed happy with my response and I was asked to do the speech which not all were. So I felt very happy with how it went. 

With Corona Virus being so unpredictable at the moment I'm sure that I'll have to do many more auditions online. To which I am honestly fine with, I think there are a lot of positives that come from it, largely to do with confidence and being comfortable which allows you to be at your very best. But I do miss being in a room with other people and feeling their energy, and obviously not having to rely on a good internet connection. I think what is wonderful is web 2.0 has allowed our industry to continue in some format and give people those jobs and opportunities that we are all so craving for. 

Diary of a Performer xx 

 Learning Styles

Reading through the handbook I've come across Kolb's learning cycle which I came across often when I was at school but never put a name to it. It was always in a survey from the school to see how many of their students learnt better in different ways. I never really thought about it much at school but now, I think back to how I made my blog (something I'd never experienced before) I simply googled blogs using my already learnt knowledge of Google, and this site was the first available to me. It seemed quite familiar to me with easy to use tools as it looks like Microsoft Word which I've used often throughout my life, therefore I was able to manoeuvre through the site mostly with ease and publish my first blog. This, I believe is known as concrete experience, where I learnt best my simply just getting on and doing it.

 I find this pattern throughout different areas of my life. The most recent experience of this was at my new job where I was learning how to scan things into the system (thrilling I know.) She showed me what to do and what to fill out on the computer, did I take this in? absolutely not, I just nodded along. It wasn't until today when I had to do it for myself that I learnt what it actually was that I needed to do and that was by doing it myself and using what was familiar to me or what made the most sense, to work it out, and now I'll probably remember it forever!

Within my professional practice I noticed that I also learn best with concrete experience, most noticeable in learning lines. I can read my lines in my head over and over again and I will take them in eventually, but if I want to learn something quickly and accurately I simply have to get up, read it aloud and 'perform' it as best as I can and I find that this allows it to stick in my brain. 

Now I've discovered my best learning style I can use this going forward to learn things quicker and better.

What a delightful thing to learn on a Monday evening.

Diary of a Performer xx

 Doubting Thomas

We're now in week 4? maybe 5 of the course (i lose track of the days!) and I'm feeling much more confident that before that I know what I need to do and how I'm going to go about it. After a one to one Skype call with Helen I had a good idea on where to take both my essay and my diagram and was feeling positive. I therefore sat down for a whole day and wrote my essay start to finish. I've read through it a number of times now and am happy with what I've written, however, I now doubt whether I've done it right or not? I enjoyed writing it and seem to have finished it quite quickly which makes me doubt whether I've missed the point of the essay? Reading it, I think it's informative, expressive and personal to me, however, perhaps I've got the wrong idea of what I was supposed to be writing about in the first place? It seems to me like my brain can't let me just accept something and go 'yes that's good' there has to always be that doubting Thomas in my head! 

As we are only allowed to hand in one draft, I think I will probably hold off and see what more I can learn from the group discussions before finalising a first draft. Has anyone else experienced something similar and have they overcome it?

Diary of a Performer xx

The Joker.

I just rewatched The Joker (The Joker, 2019). What a FANTASTICALLY scary but insightful film, I 

am left with lots of questions that the film so brilliantly raises. This film is very dark being a psychological thriller but the content is important and relevant to so many areas of the life we live in right now. I believe this is what makes the film so scary. 

'The worst part about having a mental illness is people expect you to behave as if you don't' (The Joker, 2019)

Why does this quote hit so true? I look in on myself on this one, I remember times shamefully that I have looked away from people acting strangely on the tube or taken a different route to avoid them. This is the way society views abnormal behaviour. 

Abnormal:(Hornblower, Spawforth and Eidinow, 2012) 

This is why The Joker is such a brilliant film raising awareness of topics that have no definite solution and therefore emphasises society's failings to these people. 

Another huge theme in the film is the Rich VS Poor. A common theme and one perhaps that has a particular relevance in current times. It speaks of the way that the rich get richer and the poor are left to fend for themselves and are blamed for being poor and not 'making something of themselves' this then becomes an outrage and rioting starts. We've seen this on numerous occasions in real life when people's voices have been ignored for far too long and the only thing left to do is protest. But these people are angry and ignored and violence stirs from this. What the film does so brilliantly is raise these issues where you can clearly see the problem but do you agree with the solution? By the end of the film The Joker is murdering all sorts of people so I'd hope we wouldn't agree with him, however it's interesting to note that you do UNDERSTAND why and how he has been DRIVEN to this point. Here is a man who has been betrayed, bullied and let down by every person he has ever met, he has been mentally and physically abused throughout his entire life and been forced into a happy, farcical pretence. He as a microcosm for the whole of the poor society has had enough of people belittling him and he is so angry at the way he has been treated that he reacts on impulse which for him we see is aggression and murder. Let me remind everyone that this is a piece of fiction. HOWEVER we have seen this same psychological reasoning in real life in Derren Brown's TV show 'The Push'. (The Push, 2018) This shows how a variety of people could be persuaded through a series of much smaller actions building to bigger ones to push someone willingly off a building. When I watched this programme I was in disbelief but it shows you how the mind can be manipulated and worked as a direct cause of your surroundings and interactions. 

'What do you get when you cross a mentally ill loner with a society who abandons him and treats him like trash?' (The Joker, 2019)

What this film has flowing through it is The Human Condition. We are all capable of extreme things both wonderful and awful. We are all exactly the same, the only difference is our education and situation, in other words our privilege. 

Reflecting on my own professional practice, I understand that I am only where I am today thanks to my privilege. Added to that is my hard work and determination which KEEPS me moving forwards, but without those initial steps I could not be here. 

Diary of a Performer xx 

Module 1 Monday 28th September Skype Discussion

Today we had our first module 1 focused Skype discussion. I wasn't really sure what it was all about going into and was a bit worried that I wouldn't know what to do, but it was great fun and really interesting topics were discussed. One that really sparked my interest was the assumption of race. A lot of said that really opened my eyes proving that I myself also fall victim to these assumptions. One such thing was the assumption that as Lion King The Musical (1997, Disney) is set in Africa it makes sense for the cast to be majority black. Adesola made a really fantastic point that the choreography is not a style of African dance and was in fact choreographed by Garth Fagan. It is also an American show so the point was raised that on that basis shouldn't majority Americans be cast? 

'The Jamaican-born choreographer's style is a mix of ballet and modern dance, spiced up with his Afro-Caribbean roots.' (Morain, 2020)

I've been thinking about this topic a lot over lockdown as it's been quite prominent in the media recently. I've been questioning the unconscious bias that I have to things and where they have stemmed from. I'm also aware that the things people say to me due to their own unconscious bias which annoy me, are the same things that I have found myself thinking on occasion. I don't believe this makes me a hypocrite, I think it goes deeper than that and we need to look at where we've got these ideas from, is it the media? is it our communities? is it our history? 

A point was raised about the question 'Where are you from?' and its connotations. I myself have found that when being asked this question what people really mean to say is 'What is your heritage?' Now I know people aren't intending to assume I'm not from the UK and are simply interested in me. But a small change in the question automatically changes the assumption. A question to ask is if I were to answer your question with 'Leicester' would you be satisfied? if the answer is no then you've asked the wrong question. If I were to ask you 'Where are you from?' what would your response be? if it is the same as me then why would you assume our answer would be any different? 

We have all been taught these ways through years and years of culture and education, myself included, and I think what's important now is to question what you're saying and wonder whether that's something I've unconsciously been bias towards or whether I've made my own decision about the matter. Re-taking control of our own minds. 

This isn't to say that we have to be worried to ever speak again in fear of offending someone. People on the whole aren't malicious, we are allowed to speak freely and openly as that is the cause for change. This is only stopped when people refuse to learn. 

Diary of a Performer xx 

 My Mind and it's capabilities...

So my mind has gone to pot. 

That's it end of blog. Full stop. End of story. 

But actually on a serious note, I just had my birthday (Happy Birthday to me) and now I'm 26 which is officially old. The last time I properly studied was for my A Levels 7 years ago and I was always a smart kid, always in the top classes and getting the top marks so I really didn't think this would be much of a step up for me, but WOW my mind is blown. There is just SO much information and I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do with it all...It's just there fumbling about in my brain waiting to be processed but none of the little people in my control centre (I love Inside Out) can work out where it should be sent! 

I started reading our Kortext today and after 35 pages my eyes in a cartoon would have match sticks holding them open and my brain fried on a plate. There's a hundred and one words that I don't know the meaning of and it's very scientific. Safe to say I no longer feel very intelligent😓

I think the thing I hate most about our industry is the assumption that we are 'stupid' and it makes me frustrated coming into this course feeling like I don't know what I'm doing because I KNOW that I am smart and I know that I overcome all challenges that I come across, and I know that this is just a phase. I've spent the past 4 years training and BEING in Musical Theatre and it has been so challenging, mentally, physically and intellectually, I work hard at what I do and I am proud of what I've overcome. I've been thrown in the deep end here but I've always been a good swimmer😜

If I never understand this course at least I can fall back on my puns👍

I've always worked very hard and I like to understand things before I proceed with them so this is hard for me, but change never came from easy. My mum used to say when I struggled with my Maths homework as a literal primary school child, that I always found the problem really difficult because I just COULDN'T understand how it could possibly work, but once she explained it a little and it all slotted into place in my brain it was if there was never an issue in the first place and I could carry on with ease by myself to finish the whole thing. I've always remembered this story because it manifests itself in different areas of my life since then up until present day. I like to remind myself that no matter how big the challenge is and how impossible it seems, I am only ever one crossed wire away from the solution. 

Diary of a Performer xx

 The Social Dilemma-Netflix

So yesterday I watched The Social Dilemma (Director Jeff Orlowski, 2020) and it's raised a lot of questions, a fair amount of concerns and the odd 'mind blown' moment. 

As I'm slowly but surely making my way through our module handbook I find myself at the Web 2.0 section discussing the ethical practises behind social media. Now I myself am an avid user of social media with an account on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and TikTok (I deleted Snapchat yesterday after finishing the programme-one small step for mankind, one giant leap for Laura👏) I use Twitter and Instagram on a professional level to showcase my skills and network with like-minded people. For this purpose it serves a great deal of good, without it I would not be connected to anywhere near the amount of industry professionals that I am connected to. I would not be able to share my craft and promote myself as a brand quite as accessibly as I can with these platforms. HOWEVER on a personal basis for which I have Facebook, another Instagram and TikTok I have started to question what is the good in it? 

Whilst watching 'The Social Dilemma' yesterday I had a constant argument in my mind of 'yeah BUT I want to talk to my friends and be available if they need to contact me.' What very quickly came to light was this is because social media is a drug that I am addicted to, because I don't NEED to be readily available to talk to anyone. I deserve downtime too. 

 “There are only two industries that refer to their customers as 'users': illegal drugs and software. " — Edward Tufte

What worried me most was the complete unawareness that we all have that we are being manipulated. That we have to control over what we see on our feeds but instead some super smart computer knows every detail about me, more than I know myself and is USING this information to subconsciously make me stay scrolling for as long as possible. THEN they use this information and sell it to companies for advertising money-heard of tailored ads? well there you go. SCARY! 

I could talk about this for hours but honestly I should finish with saying if you haven't yet watched it, I URGE you to get on it ASAP. You'll be horrifically surprised! 

Diary of a Performer xx 

Catfish the Musical

So Yesterday was a dream. 

Back in January I was part of a cast recording of a new musical called CATFISH. We were supposed to being doing a concert version of it in April but Miss Corona had other plans for us. 

During this time I've missed live theatre more than you could POSSIBLY imagine. There's nothing better than sitting in an auditorium with the general buzz of excitement filling the air. Then comes the first instruments that start to sound and that's it, you're taken on a JOURNEY that only you and your fellow audience members will ever experience, because that's what live theatre is, it's unpredictable, unknown and MAGICAL. 

Yesterday I got to be part of this once again. But better yet I was the one people came to see. Thanks to the amazing team at THE TURBINE THEATRE and Paul Taylor-Mills we were able to go ahead with a socially distanced, Covid safe version of our Catfish Concert and boy it did NOT disappoint. 

Reflecting back on it a day later I am so THANKFUL to have had this opportunity at a time when so many are itching to get back on stage and do what they were born to do. I feel proud to have not only been a part of a brand new upcoming musical but also to have been one of the very few shows actually playing right now and I do not and will not ever take that for GRANTED. 

2020 has taken a lot from us but we are performers and we are resilient. We WILL come back and we will come back better and stronger than ever. 

Enjoy a clip from last nights concert!

Diary of a Performer xx

 Middlesex Induction Meeting!

Here we go! Day 1 of being a proper university student 😁

We had an induction meeting where our course leader went through EVERYTHING we need to know about the course! I think what's most important for me to remember is there will ALWAYS be someone to help and have my back. It was a lot of information which was quite overwhelming, however knowing that there are people I can talk to who have already done my module is super helpful! 

Diary of a Performer xx

 Welcome Back!

Did you miss me? Probably not because I've only ever written two blogs before and I'm not sure anyone actually read them but there we go! I am BACK and ready to roll...WOOHOO!

So a quick catch up from the past 2 years since my 'MIDLIFE CRISIS 🙀' 

I got a new FANTASTIC agent who I love more than life itself! she's made me fall in love with what I do all over again, she gets me seen for what i should be seen for and pushes for me to be the best i can be. What more could you possibly ask for? oh yeah! She also boosts my confidence endless amounts every. SINGLE. time. I. See. Her. SO IMPORTANT👏👏👏

I downloaded an app called 'I AM' which I strongly recommend you all download this instance...I'll wait..

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done it? great. so you'll see that it sends your positive affirmations throughout the day that you can read and take in and love and smile about. Is there anything better than waking up to 'I am proud of who I am becoming' ? NO THERE IS NOT. IT IS WONDERFUL! 

On that note I am a much more confident, self loving and happier person that I was two years ago and that is down to meditation, family, surrounding myself with the right friends and choosing to be kinder to myself. WOW that makes a HUGE difference! it's amazing how waking up and saying 'I AM ENOUGH' instead of 'LOOK HOW BAD I LOOK' can make you truly believe that I AM ENOUGH! read it. Soak it up. It's important. 

In terms of my mid life crisis solutions:

I have started teaching singing every now and then which is a great step forward!

I still love psychology but it will have to be put on hold as I am going back to UNI 🙀 to complete my Musical Theatre course and turn it into a degree. MAD! I'm going to finally get myself one of those scrolls and wear a cape and a mask and save the world! or is that a superhero?...same difference! I'll have something that's important to me.

That's it for now, don't want to overwhelm all my avid followers with TOO much information, gotta keep some mystery so you come back to me😉

UNTIL NEXT TIME! 😘

Diary of a Performer

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